It has been a while...over ten years since I last wrote anything at all apart from my signiture. That one single marking is all I have needed since the accident. That one flourish of ink has provided me with the means to survive for over a decade now. This is my story, my voice, my first platform in which I can speak out about my life, my loves (both past and present), my desires and my cravings and lusts.
For so long now I have felt something inside that I could not understand. A longing for that something, until three days ago when my cravings, my lusts and my longing for that something came to pass, and now I will tell you about the blood and about me. My name? My name is not important, but if you like you may call me Zed. Not becuase it is my name, but in referance to the last letter of the alphabet. The forgotten letter, used so little but strong within itself. I have always liked this particular letter. Perhaps because when I think of Zed, I am always drawn to my dreams...the end of conciousness, where reality blurs and I am sometimes given back my control. It was from my dreams where everything began. Where my life changed and I became something more than a mere mortal. In my dreams I could live a life, and not just exist on society's handouts and pity. In my dreams I was someone else, I wasn't me I was Zed. This is my confession, this is my testement, this is my platform where I can tell you how it is and was. This is my life.
Saturday morning, and tonight I am going to do it again. I have found this thing and now I feel as though I have woken up from a long hybernation. I am alive! My destiny has arrived and I have become somthing more. I have morphed, mutated into something more. The blood on my hands, my heartbeat roaring in my ears, the throat closes, the fingers tighten, I can feel my power, I am the lord of my own insanity, the knight of creation. They all stare at me when I walk down the streets during the day time, but come nightfall I will change again. I have been waiting for this all of my life and now...now watch as the sun sets and the moon rises. Watch as the night releases me of my restaints and I become more again. Follow me through this labrynth and I promise you too will change.